Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I play video games alone until the morning.
People around me called me an idol, so that's what I was.
I get even more nervous singing when everyone's fallen silent, but I really try to communicate the meaning of the lyrics, and there's people there listening to that, and if they're moved by it, then I'm moved as well.
If I can't get a mental image from the song, I won't sing it.
I came back to do a live concert. Nobody had done that before and I know my managers were worried.
When I was younger, there was a huge gap between what I wanted to do and what I could do as an idol.
Aside from my work, in my everyday private life, I'm not a very adventureous person. I don't look for change.
Actually, recording the Suite Chic album was so much fun and while working on this new album, people that I've worked with from Suite Chic has lend their voice.
For the most part, I don't care about what everyone else is doing, or what is popular.
Up until now, I had ideas that I wanted to try but didn't have the opportunity to do them.
Until now, I've not done a project where the produce, rapper and singer has never worked together like this before, and I had a chance to try a variety of styles.
I guess you could say I'm cautious, or a coward.
Even my closest friend said I was finished, but I think I may be a little different from the others.
My popularity plunged three years ago and I didn't try to court publicity.
I stopped caring what people thought.
When I was snowed under with the work of an idol, I didn't have time to think.
I never had the chance to consider what or how I wanted to be.
I enjoyed the opportunities, but there was no time to think.
I had no choice in the decision to make myself available. I was not always doing things I wanted to do.
During my grief, I realised there was nothing I could do for my mother, but I did have a child.
