I don't mind getting beaten by Manny Pacquiao, Floyd Mayweather Jr and people like that, but I'd hate to go into a training camp with my heart not fully in it and risk getting beaten by somebody who shouldn't be beating me.
If I'm going to end my career, I want to end my career at the top.
I've fought at such a high level I couldn't have people look at me and say, 'well, he's just fought someone to knock them over.'
I was getting depressed, I was going out, having a few drinks and the worst thing you can do with depression is add alcohol to it.
Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom to think: 'Blimey, Ricky, get a grip.'
Depression is a very serious thing. People don't realise how deadly it can be.
The manner of my defeat against Mayweather and certainly Manny Pacquiao was a bitter pill to swallow.
I always loved training to get fit, make all those sacrifices that you do, but it just wasn't there after Pacquiao.
No. 1 career highlight? It would have to be getting the MBE from Prince Charles at Buckingham Palace.
The high of victory in the ring was bigger than the biggest party. You'd get in the ring and hear thousands of fans chanting your name and I'd be giving it all back for them.
If boxing had a professional boxing association or something like that, I think it would be a better place.
It's an individual sport so you get in the ring on your own and then when you retire you tend to spend the rest of your life on your own.
He's a very, very clever fighter, Manny, but you'd have to say the cleverest fighter in boxing is Mayweather. He adapts his style against whatever opponent he faces.
It got to a point where I didn't care if I lived or I died.
Everyone knows my story and lots of people have been disappointed in my deterioration as a man. But they can see I'm trying to get better.
Boxing has been very, very good to me.
Life has kicked me hard, hasn't it? Some of it's my fault, some of it's not my fault.
I don't want to be fighting at four or six-round levels - I want to fight for world titles.
People say nice things about me but they don't know what's been going on between my ears.
My mum and dad had four pubs when we were growing up, but the main one was the New Inn in Hattersley, on the estate. It was a very good pub.
