Growing up in a pub taught me a lot about life.
Before I turned professional I used to do carpet fitting for my dad. I wasn't much good, it's a miracle I've still got 10 fingers.
We think, 'I'm Ricky Hatton or I'm Tyson Fury, I can take on the world.' You can take on the world in the ring but this problem called depression, you can't take it on.
We're out of our comfort zones with depression. I certainly was and whenever I have bad days now I speak to someone to get it off my chest.
I feel I let everyone British sport, British boxing, my community, my home town of Manchester, my family my kids, I feel I've let everyone down with the troubles I've been in.
It doesn't matter how many people say 'well, everyone makes mistakes Ricky, you've had a great career you should be proud of yourself' but that doesn't mean much compared to what goes on between my ears.
As I went into my role as a trainer I had to get more professional as people were putting their livelihood in my hands.
My passion is promoting and training.
I had an exciting style, I was very aggressive, a body puncher, and I attacked all the time.
My style appealed to people. That's why I had the fanbase.
I could come in the gym to train with the boys and they'd think I was alright, but I'd go home and sit there crying.
When I got successful and people started talking about me, I didn't want anyone thinking I thought I was a 'big time Charlie.'
It doesn't matter how many people say 'don't be hard on yourself,' I feel like I have to redeem myself to my fans, my family and the whole of British sport.
Everything I've done in my career has been for nothing.
Life kicks you hard but you have to be a man to come back.
I want people to look at me as a four-time world champion, in two weight categories, as a down-to-earth man of the people, not the joke that I had become.
People say maybe I could have got better performances out of myself or I could have a got few more fights out of myself if I looked after my body a little bit more but at the end of the day it was because I was jack the lad.
I went to the darts, went to the football, had a little pint, no airs and graces. I think that's why I had the fan base I had.
Would I change anything? I don't know, that's a double edge sword for me.
I want to go down as a champion who redeemed himself, made up for letting everyone down and regained his self-respect.
