I've got a massive opportunity here with a great bunch of players to represent England at a World Cup; that's my biggest focus now.
It's something I've always wanted to do: wear the number 10 for England.
If you don't score, what happens? You sulk on the bus the whole way back.
I put a lot of pressure on myself to do well and score more, and it will be a matter of time. Once you get back into that rhythm, you will start getting balls that drop to you in positions where it wasn't before. I do have that feeling that it is going to come soon.
As a young boy - I was 20-21, around that age - I didn't think I was being treated right. It can affect anyone, not just me. It was about how I bounced back, how I had to think and sit down and try to move on. Not let that defeat me.
I'm trying to make the box, trying to be more ruthless, more clinical, and trying to decide games.
I don't want to be perceived as the money-grabbing 20-year-old; I just want to be perceived as the kid who loves to play football.
That's the one thing I don't like hearing, when someone says, 'We'll see what happens, see what happens here, see what happens there.' Forget all of that.
Obviously, it's disappointing when you put on a shirt and get negative feedback, but at the same time, it's what the fans want to see; they want to see you perform well.
If you grew up the same way I grew up, don't listen to what certain tabloids want to tell you. They just want to steal your joy. They just want to pull you down.
I was looking at the sights, thinking, 'I used to play there a couple of years back, and now I'm on the coach with the England team.'
When the time is right I have a laugh and a joke with my friends on a day off, but I have had to make sacrifices, and in that sense it's been a huge step forward, completely different to how it was before. I was 18 when the manager spoke to me. I realised I'm not like any other teenager. I can't be doing stuff any other 18 or 19-year-old was doing.
I've got that face. You know when you see someone on TV and go, 'I don't like him?' Some people have that face, and I've got it. I can't do anything about it.
Goals can help lift me to be one of the best two or three in the world, most definitely. You score the goal that wins the football match five, six, seven times a season: you are one of the best in the world. And that's what I need to do. I need to keep being consistent.
I don't talk about how many cars I'm going to drive, how many houses I've got. I just purely want to be the best I can be.
A few years ago, I would let it get to me. But now, as long as my mum and my sister and my kids don't have any stress, I'm good.
I grew up five minutes from the stadium and watched it being built. I'd play football right outside and look up at this huge stadium with all the cranes and building work and think, 'One day, when it's finished, I need to be playing in here.'
I'm still short now, but when I was 14, I was like a pencil. You had to be aggressive and hold your own.
One of my friends, Bruno Andrade, was so quick, he just used to knock the ball past whoever he was playing against, and I thought, 'Why can't I do that?' Until then, I would try to dribble and maybe try a stepover, but Andre would just knock it then - beep, beep - and he was so fast, he would get there first.
My mum thinks she knows her football. She'll certainly tell me when I'm not doing something right. At other times, she'll say I'm not listening to her. There's been a few clashes with her.
