You're only England captain for a very short space of time.
It does take a lot of effort to perform, playing for England. It's a huge amount of sacrifice to do and one day I might just wake up and say 'you know what, I'm done with it.'
I have loved cricket my whole life, from playing in the garden as a child, and will never underestimate how special it is to pull on an England shirt.
The captaincy thing is brilliant, and I love it. But I didn't start off playing cricket to captain England. I wanted to score runs and stuff.
No disrespect to county cricket but when you're playing for England it is the ultimate, it is what has always driven me to push myself above and beyond.
When you give up something as big as playing for England there are going to be moments when you miss it.
The England captaincy job, after 50-odd games, has found out what kind of leader I am in terms of a person. It's made me feel far more confident in terms of talking to a group in any situation. But it has taken me a long time to feel like I've been doing it naturally.
When you step out of the team environment you think, 'Wow, I'm England captain and we've just won the Ashes.'
In the end, playing for England means very little if you don't see the rest of the world around you. It is why I hate prima donnas and arrogance.
The participation of the people in their own government was the more significant, because the colonies actually had what England only seemed to have, - three departments of government.
