Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Human knowledge is never contained in one person. It grows from the relationships we create between each other and the world, and still, it is never complete.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

The physician's duty is not to stave off death or return patients to their old lives, but to take into our arms a patient and family whose lives have disintegrated and work until they can stand back up and face - and make sense of - their own existence.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Science may provide the most useful way to organize empirical, reproducible data, but its power to do so is predicated on its inability to grasp the most central aspects of human life: hope, fear, love, hate, beauty, envy, honor, weakness, striving, suffering, virtue.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

When there's no place for the scalpel, words are the surgeon's only tool.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

The good news is that I've already outlived two Brontes, Keats, and Stephen Crane. The bad news is that I haven't written anything.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

I knew medicine only by its absence - specifically, the absence of a father growing up: one who went to work before dawn and returned in the dark to a plate of reheated dinner.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Science is based on reproducibility and manufactured objectivity. As strong as that makes its ability to generate claims about matter and energy, it also makes scientific knowledge inapplicable to the existential, visceral nature of human life, which is unique and subjective and unpredictable.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Everyone succumbs to finitude. I suspect I am not the only one who reaches this pluperfect state. Most ambitions are either achieved or abandoned; either way, they belong to the past. The future, instead of the ladder toward the goals of life, flattens out into a perpetual present.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Putting lifestyle first is how you find a job - not a calling.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

A resident's surgical skill is judged by their technique and speed. You can't be sloppy, and you can't be slow.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

While all doctors treat diseases, neurosurgeons' work is the crucible of identity. Every operation on the brain is, by necessity, a manipulation of the substance of our selves.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Time for me is double-edged: every day brings me further from the low of my last cancer relapse, but every day also brings me closer to the next cancer recurrence - and eventually, death. Perhaps later than I think, but certainly sooner than I desire.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

The diagnosis was immediate: Masses matting the lungs and deforming the spine. Cancer. In my neurosurgical training, I had reviewed hundreds of scans for fellow doctors to see if surgery offered any hope. I'd scribble in the chart 'Widely metastatic disease - no role for surgery,' and move on. But this scan was different: It was my own.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

During my sojourn in ironclad atheism, the primary arsenal leveled against Christianity had been its failure on empirical grounds. Surely, enlightened reason offered a more coherent cosmos. Surely, Occam's razor cut the faithful free from blind faith. There is no proof of God; therefore, it is unreasonable to believe in God.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

The tricky part of illness is that, as you go through it, your values are constantly changing... You may decide you want to spend your time working as a neurosurgeon, but two months later, you may want to learn to play the saxophone or devote yourself to the church. Death may be a one-time event, but living with terminal illness is a process.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Had I been more religious in my youth, I might have become a pastor, for it was the pastoral role I'd sought.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

Before operating on a patient's brain... I must first understand his mind: his identity, his values, what makes his life worth living, and what devastation makes it reasonable to let that life end.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

The root of disaster means a star coming apart, and no image expresses better the look in a patient's eyes when hearing a neurosurgeon's diagnosis.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

I had spent so much time studying literature at Stanford and the history of medicine at Cambridge in an attempt to better understand the particularities of death, only to come away feeling like they were still unknowable to me.

Paul Kalanithi
Paul Kalanithi

We build scientific theories to organize and manipulate the world, to reduce phenomena into manageable units.