I was an ego maniac with a self-esteem problem and that's what most addicts are like.
Life is life and there are always going to be struggles. But when you're doing the next right thing it seems to make everything a little easier, a little bit better and a lot happier.
The third game of my career, we played Kansas City and I played as poorly as I've ever played in my life. I completed one of 15 passes and had two interceptions.
When I bought my first house I had all these red flags on my credit report because I bounced a bunch of checks to places like Pizza Hut and stuff like that for $13 or $15 because I was trying to feed my O-linemen.
I defy anybody to be of service to another human being and not have the most peaceful night of sleep you've had in a long, long time.
Many times somebody tried to help me be constructive and I just pushed them away.
When do you realize when you're a kid that you're going to be great and everybody else doesn't understand that? I don't know. I just felt I could beat everybody.
When I came into the NFL, there were three things that were very important to me: money, power and prestige. I was powerful now because I was a famous athlete. I had prestige because I was doing what everybody wanted to do. And I had a lot of money.
People hold me accountable. Before I would push people away, but that's not a way to be successful.
Every time I stepped on the practice field when I was in San Diego, I dreaded going to work. It wasn't any fun. I didn't like the people I was playing with. They didn't like me.
I think that if I was only known for who I was as a football player and only that, it just would have been a tragedy.
People say I'm arrogant or cocky. You know what it is? I feel that I have a good chance to win ball games.
I don't want to coach in the NFL.
I lay my head down every night with a ton of gratitude.
I was a talented egomaniac with a self-esteem problem.
I spent money on all the wrong things. Private airfare. Things like that.
I don't know if I was ever meant to have that flashy lifestyle.
I didn't know how to deal with real life issues the right way as a humble human being until I was humbled to the point of being put in a jail cell.
I had always been a quick healer.
I have a very small sample size: 2-0 to start my NFL career. Talking a lot of smack. And then I walk into Kansas City and put up the worst football game of my existence. And I've always been this brash, arrogant kind of guy.
