Don't forget my new kidney is a foreign object. My body attacks it. So I have to take these anti-rejection drugs to stop my body winning.
Transplant is a life-changing 'experience. Organ donation transforms lives. It is torture for you, torment for you as an individual in need.
I think I have a bright future. I know I have a problem which is going to be with me for the rest of my life, but it's for me to manage it.
I was depressed after the transplant because it's very tough to understand the trauma you still face. I remember emptying a big bag of medication and just crying and thinking, 'For me to survive another day, this is what I've got to take. For the rest of my life. I'm not sure I can continue.'
I apologise now to everybody for being the way I've been. What I was doing, torturing myself over an illness, is horrible. You push them away because you're trying to quantify what's gone on.
Obviously I tell myself I'm more than happy for everything that's been given to me. But if I wake up one morning and my kidney decides 'I don't fancy it today', I'm back to square one.
Of course, not everyone's going to get on but when you crossed that white line it didn't matter. For those 90 minutes it didn't matter what else was going on, we'd do anything to win.
You can create space just by standing still.
I always knew what Manchester United was about.
I've thoroughly enjoyed my life since I stopped playing. Of course you miss playing now and then, but I've travelled, I still work with Manchester United, I spent more time with my family and watched my kids grow up.
Dialysis is horrible and left me so tired. I couldn't do it any more, it takes so much out of you. By the end I was tired of being tired. I could sleep 11, 12 or 13 hours a day and still be absolutely knackered.
I listen to my body but I'm just thankful to be alive so that I can.
I had always looked after myself after I stopped playing.
I went through the process of trying to convince myself I was not ill.
Imagine being the parent of a six or seven-year-old who needs a transplant and there is no match. I understand now what that means.
United should have won more than three European Cups. When you look back at some of those semi-final and quarter-final defeats, we could and should have gone on to win the competition.
Usually, if you're going to be a manager, you always want to talk about football and be a connoisseur of the game.
I think it's very tough to manage a club like United.
I remember when I was retiring I said to my kids 'I promise you I'll never put on weight' because people always think footballers retire and eat and drink and put on loads of weight.
I just want to start doing normal things again which I'm missing. Going for a run, playing football.
